Apartment.

I think it's time I start looking for an apartment...
It's time to get out of here.

Have you ever?

Have you ever had those nights where you wanna go to sleep, but you just don't want to at the same time thinking that there's something that has to be done that night?

or have you ever had those nights where you wanna sleep, but you just can't because there's something constantly running through your mind? Perhaps, someone?

or or or, have you ever had a night where you're just like, man, screw everything?

Well, I hope your answer is, "yes"

As summer approaches an ending

I just want to say that summer 09 was actually good, however nothing special.
I think that summer 08 was filled with more events and exciting surprises, but 09 wasn't bad.
Overall, I think time flew by too fast in general, and sooner or later, life will be more exciting, I hope. Haha

What did I do this summer?
Let's see...

My summer technically started May 8th, 2009 which was the APICS Show 2009.
That week became stressful due to last minute preparations for the performances I was in and I was working, but it worked out nicely. Oh and also I had finals for ODU that week as well, but I did well and I'm glad. Overall though, I think APICS week was pretty nice...it was a lot of fun. Being with some of my favorite people and just having the adrenaline rush on the day of the show was great. I do miss that week, it was quite nice for me. ;D

It is a little sad, cause after that, I can't really remember any major events that happened which consisted of my summer. So here are a few memories (good and bad), that actually stick out randomly, I'll try to say them chronologically:

Photoshoot with Twelve15 at Landstown (which was great, but I had trouble dealing with these security guards)

The creation of "One" =]

Uhh, uhh... "Twelve15" Day that started with Eileen, Liz, Rachel, Jason and I, then ended up just being Liz, Rachel, and I then just Liz and I...lol. But, that was fun...making video of Knock U Down and Medleys! and also going into the beach with regular clothes on was interesting too.

Hmm, chillen with the boys is always fun, what did we all do? Pong, beach, and etc. Haha

July 1st marked my one year anniversary at Old Navy, yay.

July 4th wasn't too bad, I actually enjoyed a really hot day of tennis and seeing peoples at Redwing Park. But I did also get really burnt that day and it started the beginning of my face peeling. =[

July 17th, I believe was Liz's surprise party which was pretty fun, ping pong is fun. and and, Kelsey's house is like MTV cribs status...and yeah, it was fun.

July 21st, Went to go watch WWE in Richmond, that was a great first experience with Tommy. I needa go watch again.

July 23rd, This was probably more fun, Liz's actual birthday, we chilled all day...played golf, and just chilled and jammed, learned how to play Mafia ! Haha and ended the day with massages, =D

Then...August 17th, Water Country with friends. Yeah, that day ended badly, but you know what? I still had fun.

August 22-24, New York trip with the family.

I didn't really do much, but the summer is gone now, time to get back to being a serious college student, haha. =p

Let's make more memories as we go on, shall we.

New York

Well I'm off to New York again for the semi-annual trip...
Haha

=]

For you, you, and you.

-- For ten people.

Not in any particular order.

1. Sometimes, you really make me angry...I don't even know why, it's just that I feel like you don't try in anything you do. We've been hanging out for quite a while now and offcourse, there's some things that will never change...but I've really been looking for change from you and I haven't seen much progression. I know that you're a great person and that you can be successful in life, but why is it so hard for you? I can't say I understand everything that you've gone through, but I know that life goes on and regardless of the rough times that you've experienced...You have to just rise to the occasion. I know you well enough to know that there is a lot in life that you haven't experienced and I just hope one day you'll be comfortable enough to just live freely. You seem to really be too worried about what others think or too insecure to try new things. You have to be more open...One day, I want to see that determination in you and a change. I'm sorry that I sound selfish asking you to change for me, but I'm pretty sure that everyone wants to see the change...Simply, what I'm trying to say is, be yourself. And surprisingly, even though you can make me angry and annoy me, I still want you to change for your own good, so I do care about you.

2. I sometimes wish that we could go back and be as close as we were at one point, I really wonder, what happened to that? Partially, I know it is my fault, but yours as well. I would be happy if we could go back to being better friends than we are now, if I had that opportunity, then sure. But most likely, I don't see it happening and simply cause of one obstacle: significant other. I think that's been a problem for a lot of couples, finding the balance between friends and boyfriend/girlfriend. I hope that you're really happy though, but I think you should take the time to realize that your friends need you. This was a really unclear message though, I'm sorry, but I do miss how things used to be. I miss you. This is interesting cause this could be for anyone, but I have just one person in my mind.

3. I've found it really hard to accept things that I don't want to such as like...breakups or breakups. And offcourse, we never really dated, but still, it was really hard for me to accept it when you let me go. There were so many obstacles in the way and sometimes I think we both felt that things would never work out, but we did attempt to fight against it...and looking back, it was enjoyable. You were really a sweetheart to me and I found myself just smiling everytime I would think about you. Me sitting here blogging actually kind of feels like those days, really. Late night blogging. Regardless of what anyone thought, now that I think about it...everything was my decision and I don't regret it really. I thought we we're cute, I thought you were cute. Actually I can't say were, cause offcourse you're still cute. I think a lot of people think that we're awkward to each other now, but I think we're pretyyy tiiight huh? Well, for the most part. There were times when we probably really hated each other, cause offcourse we were both stubborn...but I'm sorry for that. When I did come across our old conversations, I laughed because there were things that I can't believe we said to each other, but I mean...I'm really happy that I can look back and just laugh about it other than feel angry or sad, and I hope you feel that way too. We'll chill soon, and I think it'll be fun. Haha, Thank you for everything, I mean it. :]

4. I really don't get you sometimes, but you're a great person...I think you have some flaws, but who doesn't? I just wished you would get to understand some things that I do...I don't really know if that makes sense, but you seem to only appreciate things that you like. You sometimes remind me of someone that I really despise and I hate that. I don't like how careless you are sometimes, but then you complain so much...but I still care for you a lot. I've somewhat watched you grow up, even if it's only been for a little bit...and now that we've grown up I hope our friendship continues to grow.

5. Why are you always appearing where I am? Man, I thought that time would help and everything would be okay, but honestly...you still bother me. Please don't talk to me unless you have something really important to say. I know you are just trying to be friendly, but it's like weird. Noone is ever that friendly. I'm Shun, not just an asian toy.

6. It's getting down to 5 more people and I had to really think what I wanted to say and who I would choose, but I could not forget you. You're pretty cool, cooler than me, yes. I don't really even know what we are at this point, but we're friends and thanks for that. I kind of doubted that we would really be "friends", maybe "friend of friends", but not friends...but I'm glad. I don't really know how I feel about you, but eventually I'll figure it out. Chilling with you is always fun and yes. You're really a good person and you're very pretty, so you deserve the best and I hope you do. I think every single one of these entries is somewhat obvious to who it was anyways, so oh well. Even though, I might not be the best tennis player that you personally know, I think you're the best singer I know, ;p.

7. Thank you for being able to listen and supply me with your input on anything that I'd ask, when I asked. I never would of ever thought that you would be someone like that and someone that I'd be talking to that much. Your thoughts and experiences with relationships and life relate a lot with mine, making it much easier for us to talk. Sometimes, people do not appreciate deep talks, but I'm grateful that you do...while making it fun too. And you deserve someone that would treat you with their best, and you will receive that someone too, soon.

8. We've been pretty close now for a few years and it's been a lot of fun. Thank you for your friendship. Sometimes though I wish you could open up more as well, and speak your mind about whats on your mind to me. You're more of the listener then the talker, however I'm sure there are times when you want to say something. That's pretty much all I want to say, thanks though, you're a great person.

9. Some choices that people make aren't always the right ones, and I know that I've made many wrong choices in my life...but sometimes I think you need to get your priorities straight also. I know your priorities have changed ever since we've met, but you can not forget the friendship you've built with us. Can you say honestly that you're happy with everything even if it revolves around only a slight group of people? I'm sure you can be happy without me, but I still care about you cause you're supposedly my close friend. Maybe when school begins, we'll all be good again, it'll be like the old times...Miss you.

10. I was thinking who I really had in store for this last one, but I just wanted to say to you...

I hope everythings going to be okay, I love you.

Monster Hunter!

So recently, last weekend during Tax Free...I purchased Monster Hunter: Freedom Unite for PSP, and now...just gotta say one thing; i'm addicted.

Wow, just wow.

Just going back to edit this post, since I just wrote a title and no entry...lol

I think I just had a moment this day when I was just like, you know? "wow..."
But !
It's because last friday, I worked till like 1130pmish, then went to sleep like 2, woke up at 5, to go to work again from 6am to 3pm...and then went to the beach, and I was soooo exhausted...
But the main reason I said wow was because I kept forgetting things and I also messed up my new vans...-_-

ANYWAYS, this was just an off dayish. haha.