Let's face it,

no matter how hard I try,
no matter what happens,

It all comes back to you,
you, you, you...

Gosh I miss you.

Enjoy

having conversations with people who you can enjoy talking to without having to worry about saying anything wrong or saying anything too crazy...

You know, I'm just saying you know you can really enjoy talking to someone when you don't ever get annoyed of what they say to you or you tell them anything and they stay understanding and happy throughout the conversation...

I can only think now off the top of my head about two people that I know I can do this with, and it's really nice.
It's no wonder.

About one year ago

I...

Oh, what the heck. I can't even finish what I wanna say.

Will you help me?

I feel it

Little by little, school is starting to get much tougher and I'm starting to become much lazier, as time progresses.
The drive going to ODU everyday sucks.
I'm feeling the stress coming.

But not to talk about anything special here, just wanted to update
about the past few days or so and things that have been going on in my life? Haha

Saturday was my typical work day, closed, however played tennis in the morning which was nice except hot.

Sunday, enjoyed a day off and chilled with Rachel & AMP43
Oh man, the charades was pretty fun, =]
Went to "yo mamas" for the first time, I have to agree, it is definitely better than Skinny Dip. It was just really a chill day.
I felt bad cause I didn't really know what to do except "chill" and yeah, hopefully it wasn't boring. Haha

Monday, typical first day of the weekday, class...uh, tennis, take home test for astronomy was rough.
Oh yeah, my league team made districts so we're going to be playing against other districts, yay. =]

Today, another just chill Tuesday.
Went to campus early to finish the take home test, then class...then chilled with Emmy and studied somewhat, but I cannot study unless I'm by myself, wah.


GIVE ME SOME EXCITEMENT TOMORROW ! Ah
But I close tomorrow . =[
lol

Priorities

So last night, I had a talk with a friend who got a little upset with me, because I was slacking in Accounting when it's supposed to be my major...
However, this story gets lengthy.

Anyways, I needed some reassurance because I'm not confident with my accounting homework yet so I asked him, and when I kept asking him easy questions that I should know, it upset him so he told me that I needed to focus and study and prioritize my time to what may be my future: Accounting.
This really made me feel like I need to prioritize some things in my life, cause lately...I really haven't been.

Today, I was supposed to complete an online Accounting quiz by 10PM, however I completely forgot about it until 11:30PM..and now I'm just sitting here...really disappointed in myself and feeling like crap.
Why and how could I do something so stupid? =/
I know, these are one of those things where there's nothing you can do, so eventually I'll be able to shake it off, but It's gonna bug me for a while.

So I decided also, that I'm not going to ODU for this Fasa Cookout Sunday...
I took off work Sunday to go, but I decided that I'd rather spend some time with Rachel, cause I haven't seen her in forever, and I'd really rather spend time with one great friend than a group full of people who I may not even be comfortable with or have a good time with, blah. So I'm looking forward to that.

I also really need to start studying and doing extra homework and notes so I can understand my classes...Doing the homework is really not enough, I have to be able to understand the concepts that we are expected to learn.

I hope this weekend allows me to relax and enjoy not having to worry about schoolwork, =/

Eh

Eh...
It's not that great.
She ain't that great.
Nothing ain't too great.

EH.

Dancing

I just watched a few dancing videos and it made me want to dance, badly.
But then I just realized I suck, ughhh.

Lose

I just wanted to reflect on how badly I played my game today...
Double faults, after mishits, after just poor placed shots, and not to mention sucky volleys.

I was getting sooo frustrated, so excuse my vulgarity.

Shun, why the fuck are you not as good as you can be?
Why can't you play as consistent as you could before?
Why the fuckkk do you keep losing?

I hate losing.
I don't play to lose.
I play to win.

My weakness

So today as I was just randomly thinking to myself, I realized that...
I have a weakness to pretty girls, lol.

So what do I mean by that?
Well, I realized that whenever I see a pretty girl, I lose a lot of confidence in myself and I instantly make myself feel lesser to them, which I really shouldn't be.
Then if they're pretty and they are capable of having a decent enjoyable conversation with me, then that's where it's like...oh my.

I guess what I'm trying to say is that I crush on girls sooo easily, I don't even know why. Actually I do know, it's cause girls in general, for the most part...females are a beautiful gender, not to say that we (men) are just as good, but the tiniest thing that girls, especially pretty ones, do are...cute and pretty, right right.
With some exceptions of course.

I bet if a pretty girl asked me for something, I'd probably say yes...
I'm probably gonna get taken advantage of one day soon, and I'm probably going to be too happy to notice. I mean it's happened before, it'll happen again.