The Beginning

Well, well, well...
This is my first post on blogspot, woo! Haha. I never really had too much motivation to write in this or the Xanga in the past few days, but I guess you gotta start somewhere.
ANYWAYS, I don't even know if anyone will read this. I'll just speak on any random thoughts I have here and whoever reads, will read...I suppose? Here it goes.

So the weather has been really nice lately, it's tennis season!
I remember walking from the back of Landstown to the tennis court around this time of the year, last year. The weather was beautiful and just knowing that I could enjoy my favorite sport and passion...it was great. This year, feels different though, in a sense. Most of it is probably due to the fact that I graduated and can no longer play "high school tennis". Looking back at my four years on the team, it's just overwhelming and surprising...that it's over for me. I accomplished a lot and have been improving since I started playing seriously in 8th grade summer, but I wish I can have one more year. Haha, I've probably said this over and over before...but yeah. It makes me happy to see people who want to get better work hard and stay enthusiastic...but nowadays, it's not even about the hard work. Nowadays, it's just people who start playing because their friends play or cause they just want something to do...people who just think they're good because they "made the team". It really is true that #1 at Landstown don't mean ish and even making the team don't mean ish...none of that means anything if either 1. you're losing every match or 2. you don't even try your best...I want to see someone work as hard as I did when I realized that I wanted to play tennis. If you want something, you just gotta keep trying...you know? Oh and that reminds me...for things that I'm truly interested in, I get really passionate about it...if there is one thing that I actually like about myself, it's that I work hard for things I want...and it showed during my tryouts in freshmen year. My coach would tell me that he liked my tenacity and determination on the court...I was proud that I made someone that I needed to impress, impressed as well. So, from those days on...I guess I gave myself the nickname, "Mr. Determined"...and it has stuck to me since. I've had my ups and downs with tennis...sometimes I just wanted to quit cause I felt that I wasn't good enough or cause it was just starting to bore me, but I'm glad that I have stuck to it and hopefully I continue to progress.

Haha, even though I was planning on writing down all my thoughts I had for today...I'll just only do one more...something that happened at work, and it made me think.
I was talking to my coworker earlier tonight and she started asking me what my plans were for Valentine's Day. I told her that I was working and then I don't know what. She was like, "Seriously!?" So I just said yeah? and she asked me, "Is your girlfriend mad that you're working?" I was like, "What? Haha, I don't have a girlfriend right now" and she seemed a little surprised. She said to me, "I though you'd have a girlfriend, you seem like such a nice guy" Haha, it was just interesting. It made me think about the last and first relationship I had, three and a half years. It's kind of funny looking back to that, haha. I learned a lot from it and I don't have anything else to say. Maybe next time, just maybe...I don't feel like I wasted those years on a girl. Lessons learned, but soon to be forgotten.

Speaking of the whole lessons thing, just wanted to talk about one more thing. I guess you have to experience a lot of things in life first hand, until you can learn a lesson or know what's wrong from right or right from wrong. So I just recently crashed my sister's car, if it was the first time I've done something like that, then...maybe it wouldn't be too bad on my part...but like three or four times? The first time, I probably told myself..."Okay, lesson learned..." But, still it happened again. I guess I really didn't learn, or maybe I just forgot. Every crash has gotten worse and worse. Hopefully, there is NO next time. I really want to say and know that I've learned my lesson and that's the truth.

Ah, it's late...
Maybe I'll mess around with this entry some other time.
I'd say this was a pretty good first entry!
Goodnight =]