It all goes down...

Friday, seriously.
I..no, we are sick of this.
It's either we're all in 110% or we're done.
It's going down...

USTALEAGUE09!

It's been a while, but I have to jot down some good news...
I'm actually looking forward to the next several months.
But first, I guess I gotta get past this next week, it's going to suck =/
But anyways, to make a long story short, the events/things I'm looking forward to are as follows:

April 3rd, A group practice possibly- We really need it.
April 4th, Kings Dominion - YES !
Then...
April 6th, USTA Spring League begins- and last minute, I know, but I joined...and I'm glad I did so I can continue playing competitively, I've been really slacking and it's time I get back into it.
and I'm talking about tennis. haha.
Then league continues for a few months...
then May 8th, the moment we all been waiting for, well some of us...finally dancing won't consume most of my life and I can start relaxing somewhat...maybe move onto some other things like singing haha.
By May 8th, spring semester will be over and things will feel really relaxing.

YT, Inspiration.

Just spent a couple hours watching and listening to music by some of my favorite YouTube stars, somehow their lyrics and music is more inspiring to me than popular artists...I feel more in the shoes of them, the underdogs.

Now I think I'll try.

Looking Ahead

There is a lot to be done within the next few months and it's overwhelming.
I'd say my top three priorities as of now is school, work, and somehow...the dance.
Surprisingly, tennis didn't come up this time...that can wait till the summer.

We have less than two months to still choreograph and perfecting our performance...and as the way things are going now, we aren't doing too great. And I wish I could say that we were and that I've made such a great contribution, but I can't. I'm not a dancer, but no doubt, I will try...
I just don't want any bull crap responses or put downs.

I also would like to start writing...
But I need some inspiration.

SPRBRK09

Well, finally...Spring Break 09 has come.
It doesn't really feel too much like a break since it's only a week, but I can manage...
I don't really have anything special for this break, but I can use the relaxation time.
And I can also use this time to...as lame as it sounds, "find myself".

I need to take this time to understand my priorities and everything around me, especially just myself in general. I need to start living my life the way I want to live my life, the way I ever could imagine. Sometimes, when I have so much free time, and I get into my deep thinking mode, I always just replay the same thought over and over in my head,

"What in the hell am I doing?..."

Just sometimes I feel like I could be doing something productive, doing something to become a more perfect person, in this never perfect world...

I have many flaws, but I try my best to overcome them...
Sometimes, things seem so irrational to me...things are so different than what I always expect.
I try my best to be the best that I can be, but why can't others?
Why do I have the mindset that people around here all think like me?
Treat people with respect, you get respect, you love, they love, we all are at one...
Harmony, peace, and precision...
But nah, people are mad grimey, shady, stupid, unloving, uninspirational, mean, disgusting...

And now I feel guilty of that too, I've fallen into the same trap, and this Spring Break...is where I will get out...

Thank you

Don't Understand

You take too much of your time worrying about my flaws...
worrying about me in general,
babying me till I go to sleep and wanting to know every little detail about my life.
You think you're always right and smart...when you don't know anything...
You don't know what you really need to know...
As a parent, you shouldn't have to look through all my stuff or ask me every little question...
You should know who I am...but you don't.
You know why, because I said it in the beginning...
You waste your time worrying about me, than really understanding who I am.