SPRBRK09

Well, finally...Spring Break 09 has come.
It doesn't really feel too much like a break since it's only a week, but I can manage...
I don't really have anything special for this break, but I can use the relaxation time.
And I can also use this time to...as lame as it sounds, "find myself".

I need to take this time to understand my priorities and everything around me, especially just myself in general. I need to start living my life the way I want to live my life, the way I ever could imagine. Sometimes, when I have so much free time, and I get into my deep thinking mode, I always just replay the same thought over and over in my head,

"What in the hell am I doing?..."

Just sometimes I feel like I could be doing something productive, doing something to become a more perfect person, in this never perfect world...

I have many flaws, but I try my best to overcome them...
Sometimes, things seem so irrational to me...things are so different than what I always expect.
I try my best to be the best that I can be, but why can't others?
Why do I have the mindset that people around here all think like me?
Treat people with respect, you get respect, you love, they love, we all are at one...
Harmony, peace, and precision...
But nah, people are mad grimey, shady, stupid, unloving, uninspirational, mean, disgusting...

And now I feel guilty of that too, I've fallen into the same trap, and this Spring Break...is where I will get out...

Thank you