Raindrops

So I noticed that I've been slacking a little bit on blogging, and I just wanted to update a little, in this little diary.
It's almost been a month of summer and really, I haven't done much besides...work, sleep, and chill. I need to start doing something more productive maybe. Actually, memorable would suit the spot well.

Today (June 5th, 2009) has been a depressing day...
I tend to feel more emotional and filled with thoughts on days when the weather is horrible like todays.
Today was such an ugly day and not to mention boring. I had no plans really and didn't have the initiative to make any as well. I just felt like sitting there and complaining that I was bored...which is bad and turned into me feeling down.
I just wish I didn't feel so out of place with my life right now...
I don't even really know what I need, but somethings either overwhelming or missing in my life. I think I need a sense of security and assurance.
The routine chilling, work, and hanging out with the friends is nice and all, offcourse...but there is something else that I need...
Playing a lot of tennis has slowly helped me develop my game to back where it was at its peak and I'm slowly getting there again, however...when I do, what do I do now? I'm sure that I'll be happy with my game, but who really cares? I would be more happy if I were able to find a girl that was actually interested in getting better in tennis and that I can help her, and she could be my mixed doubles partner. Yes. But no, that's just too good to be true.
And I think it's no coincidence that in the end it all comes down to girls...and love life...
girls, can't live with em, can't live without em.

Anyways, I also re-cut my hair, shorter..haha
This is fun, but I donno...I don't think this phase will last too long.
Maybe for a couple months, but then it's back to the plain ol hair.

I've also been slacking on the whole song writing thing that I was really into last week, so I'm going to get back into it...and work on my 2nd song. =p

But for now...see you again.